Known
in Buddhist practice as self-grasping, in psychology as personality, and by
writers as persona, Ego is considered to be our chief obstacle to spiritual
practice. Western Tantra will use this term to designate our life plan for
interacting with our environment, which includes our characteristic ways of
relating to other people, the methods we use to do things, our “style,” the
ways we see ourselves and the ways we hope other see us. It can include even
our homes, cars, family and country identification. But Ego especially focuses
on our physical body and the way we clothe and care for it. Think of Ego as our
self-concept and its habitual way of relating to the world. Ego interferes with
our spiritual progress in three primary ways.
First,
the physical body belongs to the material realm, and its demands tie us to the
material world. We then focus on the material world as the solution to our
problems. It’s great to have a comfortable material life, but we should keep in
mind that our physical body will eventually die, leaving all our material
wealth behind. So to be realistic, we should use our time on earth to find our
pathway to the eternal.
The
second way our Ego interferes with our spiritual progress is by draining our
Soul of its power. Our Ego is merely a mental concept, how we view ourselves,
and the habitual ways we relate to the world, our personality. Our personality
usually conflicts with the way others see us. We try to help others and people
accuse us of selfish motives. If we think of ourselves as tough-minded, we are
criticized for showing weakness. Wherever we go and whatever we do, we have to
defend ourselves and our actions. This takes energy. On a purely physical
level, the brain works hard to correct dissonance between personal and external
perceptions, and this expends neurotransmitters. Threats to our self-concepts
take mental work which exhausts us.
On
a spiritual level, maintaining Ego also takes energy. If you are in tune with
your inner mental realm, you realize that challenges to our self-concept weaken
our Ego, and the Ego must draw consciousness energy, life force, from its
source, the Soul, in order to restore the Ego. The more our Ego’s life plan
fails to supply our needs, the more Ego drains our Soul of energy to maintain
our image of ourselves in the face of reality. We experience blows to our Ego
as Soul crushing.
Those
of us with awareness of our life force, the energy of consciousness, realize
how essential this life force is to our wellbeing. In different cultures, this
life force is called: prana, chi, qi, kundalini, juju, esa, medicine, breath,
light, love, and many other names. The spiritually aware can feel this energy
and where it flows. Your life force flows to the focus of your attention. It’s
why we say pay attention. It costs us
something, our juju.
When
the Ego hurts, we pay attention to ourselves, and life energy flows from our
source of divine energy, our divine Soul, to heal our hurt Ego. The more the
Ego is out of step with reality, the more wounds our Ego takes from the world,
and the more energy it takes from the Soul to support itself. The Ego is a
fixed self-concept that is trying to deal with an ever-changing reality, so our
Egos are constantly draining our Souls of energy, leaving little of no energy
for other uses, including healing our body or discovering our gateway to the
beyond.
The
third way our Ego interferes with our spiritual progress is by sabotage. We
mistake our Ego as our true nature. We think the ways we see ourselves and all
our support mechanisms that maintain the Ego are our true state of being. They
are not. Our true nature is pure consciousness in union with all-that-is, what
some call Soul in union with God, Consciousness dwelling in Emptiness,
Enlightened consciousness, Nirvana, Satori, Paradise, and many other terms.
Many people have described the ecstasy of discovering their true nature in the
universe.
However,
when we discover our true nature, we naturally abandon our false nature, our
Ego. We stop feeding it our life force energy, and Ego dies. Our Ego knows it
lives only by means of the consciousness energy it draws from the Soul. Because
Ego thinks it is us, it thinks we will cease to exist without the Soul’s life
energy, so Ego enslaves our Souls. When our Souls eventually discover this
subterfuge as part of the spiritual path, we discover we do not need a concept
to exist. We exist beyond concepts, and the Ego dissolves. We become selfless.
Ego is terrified of losing its life energy and will do anything to sabotage progress on the spiritual path to discover reality, that we are not our mental concepts of ourselves. That is why the Ego is known as the enemy we carry around inside us. As described in Western Tantra, the White Path of Ethics, Chapter 6 “The Enemy Within,” the Ego will even kill its host body to escape from the reality that Ego must surrender and dissolve in order to liberate the Soul. That is why most spiritual traditions forbid suicide. They realize that surrender of the Ego is an essential step on the spiritual journey.
As
traumatic as losing your concept of self can be, there are great benefits. One
is the feeling of freedom. You no longer need to feed your Ego, and it can no
longer be hurt, because it is gone. The other great benefit is that without the
need to feed your life energy to your self-concept, you now have energy for
other uses. You can heal your body with your own life energy, you can heal
others, and wishes backed by the power of your unselfish, divine Soul now have
the power needed to manifest. Magic becomes real. Really.